How do I stop loving my son?

Hunny, you and your son need some serious psychiatric help (separately is probably the best way to go about this until this scandal passes by). This is not normal, and although it may of been something you felt was out of your control... these sort of tendencies need to be left on the side lines. Please please please go to a therapist, talk to someone besides yahoo.. this is a serious problem, and it has already started to run your life, don't let it take over. Best of luck to you and your son.